well, one of the things on my 100+ dream list that i did two weeks ago was develop a consistent meditation practice.
now i'm sure that someone i know told me about this long long ago because she actually changed her name to this. but i'm not really GETTING it until now.
i went on my library website and put every book i could find about meditation and mind*fullness on hold. i actually got a snippy message from the library.
"elizabeth, you have thirteen books on hold here at the library and we don't have an abundance of room on our shelves to keep that many books for one person so would you please come pick them up?"
but then when i did go to pick them up they said that i was not the first one that had gone buck nutty putting books on hold on their websight before. so then i felt better.
anyway, one of the books is about loving-kindness, or maitri, meditation. and i actually have a friend who changed her name to maitri, so i know she has told me and the online community in which i met her about it before.
but i actually started it practicing it last night and it actually works for me.
it decreases my anxiety.
it helps me feel more relaxed.
i still did have some insomnia last night and got up after trying to fall asleep for a while. but usually when i get up i'm up for hours. last night i was only up for about 30 minutes.
so it's working.
and it just makes me feel so...GOOD.
full of love...and kindness. go figure, since it's loving-kindness meditation and all...
more later and this week's assignment percolating~